Infertility sucks! Let me just first give a few disclaimers before you read. Yes I already have a child I am very grateful for. Yes I understand everyone’s journeys and battles are different when it comes to fertility. I am only here to share my story and what I went through and how it made me feel.

Trying to conceive baby #2 has been emotional mentally and physically exhausting. I had no clue as to what I had I. Store for me when ttc.

Just a quick recap as to where I am on this journey of trying. I started in October of 2021 did an in medicated IUI then followed that with 2 medicated IUI’s after that I moved in to IVF. My first round of IVf I got one embryo and did a frozen transfer without testing and it did not take. I found that out in April 2022. I did 3 more retrievals after that and all the embryos created were tested and came back as abnormal. When I got the news of the last retrieval in November, I was crushed. I didn’t have anymore sperm from my daughters donor and he was no longer donating. I really thought at this point it was over and I had to start mourning the loss of another expectation I had built up in my head.

A few days passed and inside I just knew I was not done growing my family and that I had to see if there was anything I could do to keep going. I reached out to the moms of my daughter’s donor siblings and thankfully 2 women had extra vials of sperm. I was so excited I want to jump out of my skin!! I got them to ship me 5 vials. Ok at this point I had to figure out the egg thing….do I start looking for donor eggs, how do I do this anonymous, known donor, fresh or frozen. I just wasn’t sure where to start.